I am back!! For now. Life has been all about work, work, work, work, sleeping and eating and working some more. My free spirit is feeling crushed and neglected. Usually I like to live my life by the day. See where it takes me. Most of the time it doesn’t take me far but I’m okay with that for now, I just want to live the way I want too. I don’t want to go into work for 2/3 hours a day with a pay that’s not even worth my time. If I knew I was dying tomorrow I’d definitely be spending my time doing something else. Plus it’s summer!! It’s hot out, friends are free, places to see, things to do. I have the whole world in front of me and yet I can’t go out and explore it. It’s starting to drive me a bit crazy.

Also my boyfriend (whos birthday is this Sunday, which is also the day I met him. We are still going quite strong if I must say so myself and I’ve never been happier in my life.) moved into a new place, which is really great for him and his roommates. It’s a house compared to an apartment. So I’m excited for them, I didn’t really help them move cause I’m tiny but I’ve unpacked some of the stuff. I’m worried about one thing. The amount of time I’m spending at their place. Sometimes/most of the time I feel like I should be at my own place or hanging out with some girlfriends instead of being there whenever I can. I don’t think Kevin or his roommates really mind but sometimes I can feel it in the air. Like something is telling me to go home and give Kevin and his friends some space. Maybe it’s just me being paranoid but better safe than sorry right? Plus I don’t feel like asking cause that might be weird…

-Anyways -

I’ve been thinking about my summer last year and how amazing it was. I lived my life the way I wanted too… free. And who’s better to do that with than a best friend? I miss him so much I can’t even put into words. My friends Kaylee was talking about how much she missed him and I couldn’t even say anything because how I feel about him being gone is so indescribable. But he’s coming back soon so that’s super exciting. Plus another best friend of mind is coming to visit and I definitely can’t wait to see his face. I’m going to eat him up so fast he won’t know where he is. <3

Anyways, life is life and that’s how I’m living it. With a touch of anxiety but what am I going to do? Take meds that’s what… ugh

I hope life is treating my fellow tumblrians well.

Goodnight.

-SmokeyDayDreams**

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I’m just going to smoke a bowl or two or three or everything I have left, and watch Disney movies. Play with my sassy cats. Do some laundry. Maybe eat something. Or not. Then I’m going to my boyfriends. Good day off work.

SmokeyDayDreams*

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